OH MY WORD....WE ARE GOING TO HAVE A TWO YEAR OLD IN OUR HOME!! Funny how reality takes a hold of you, isn't it? As sad as some of the pieces of this puzzle are, it has hit us that we need to prepare our home for Tizi. She is coming! It's something I've been holding back on, the preparing of our home. It felt safer to wait it out and see it there will really be a baby at our "finish line." I think she'll be there. Our finish line is in sight. Marc and I fly to Ethiopia to pick up Tizi on June 10 and return with her on June 15.
Earlier this winter, Josie and I were laying in bed doing our pre-bedtime reading. I can still see and feel this scene so clearly. I was laying there reading to Jos and out of nowhere, my chest grew tight, my heart began to race and I shot upright in bed stating, "I can't do this!! We can't do this!!" (earlier that week we had sent out money that really sealed the adoption commitment, so obviously that was rolling around in my brain) Anyway, I was heading right into a panic attack until Josie simply and firmly spoke, "MOM, YOU ARE FINE!! Don't you trust God?" (I'm not sure if she even looked up from our book.) It was like I was in slow motion. Her words sank in and I said, while trying to get some oxygen back into my lungs, "Okay, right. I'm going to be fine, right Jos? I can do this, right? Oh yeah, trust God. Good idea." (we like to practice role reversal in this house) It took a bit, but I pulled it together and have so often, since that night said to myself, "It's going to be fine Mary, you can do this, don't you trust God?"
And with blind trust we move forward. Today, we ordered a car seat, got the crib down from the attic and started setting up a room for Tizi. As all of this is going on, Marc happened to be looking through the mail and said, "Guys, this is not good." (I'm thinking some monster bill came) He goes on to show us that he received his AARP card. All true!! As we prepare our home for baby, Marc becomes eligible for AARP. I knew God had a sense of humor, I had no idea it was twisted.
Again, we thank you for sharing in our tears over the past several days, but we also thank you for sharing in our laughter and there has been much to laugh about. Now, if you'll excuse this short entry, I need to get off the computer as Marc wants to check if there are any eligible AARP discounts on car seats.
Earlier this winter, Josie and I were laying in bed doing our pre-bedtime reading. I can still see and feel this scene so clearly. I was laying there reading to Jos and out of nowhere, my chest grew tight, my heart began to race and I shot upright in bed stating, "I can't do this!! We can't do this!!" (earlier that week we had sent out money that really sealed the adoption commitment, so obviously that was rolling around in my brain) Anyway, I was heading right into a panic attack until Josie simply and firmly spoke, "MOM, YOU ARE FINE!! Don't you trust God?" (I'm not sure if she even looked up from our book.) It was like I was in slow motion. Her words sank in and I said, while trying to get some oxygen back into my lungs, "Okay, right. I'm going to be fine, right Jos? I can do this, right? Oh yeah, trust God. Good idea." (we like to practice role reversal in this house) It took a bit, but I pulled it together and have so often, since that night said to myself, "It's going to be fine Mary, you can do this, don't you trust God?"
And with blind trust we move forward. Today, we ordered a car seat, got the crib down from the attic and started setting up a room for Tizi. As all of this is going on, Marc happened to be looking through the mail and said, "Guys, this is not good." (I'm thinking some monster bill came) He goes on to show us that he received his AARP card. All true!! As we prepare our home for baby, Marc becomes eligible for AARP. I knew God had a sense of humor, I had no idea it was twisted.
Again, we thank you for sharing in our tears over the past several days, but we also thank you for sharing in our laughter and there has been much to laugh about. Now, if you'll excuse this short entry, I need to get off the computer as Marc wants to check if there are any eligible AARP discounts on car seats.
Never ever join AARP, they are a bunch of liberals. Have a fun and safe trip.
ReplyDeleteKeith